2 am and i need to be up at 6.

i am in a ranty mood, so here goes.

i am up because i was doing my colour and lighting homework. i did it ALL day (after errands and an oil change) and i couldnt get it to work. eventually, i just ran out of paint so i had to make do with what i had. i put it all together and it looks like poo because i didn't trace it, so i just cut it. (it worked for the last colour wheel, but this one is more precise...so bad call).

so overall, it looks like poo.

im not re-doing it.

not like i could, even if i wanted to...since i'm not spending another thirty bucks on PAINT. yeah...no.

sooo it sucks, and that is pretty much all i got done today, and A BIT of this other assignment. but barely..it doesn't even count.

wednesday: wasted.

kajdfAFKja goodnight.

(i apologize if you actually took the time to read this nonsense)

:)

Post Secret, and them some.

It really has been a while since I blogged, or I'm having one of those nights - I clicked "view blog" three times when all I really wanted to do was press "New Post."

This post secret really stood out to me.

Lately, I think I've been struggling a lot with mediocrity, and it's helped a lot to finally sit down and sort things out. I think with all the time off from school (a whole TEN DAYS YEAH)...I had a lot of time to just think and...be surrounded with my own thoughts. I guess that's good, but also bad in some ways - since a lot of time in my head sometimes gets me down. If you know me (and you probably do since you're bothering to read this) you'll know I'm a worrier. So a lot of time spent just thinking just means lots of worrying, and I think seeing the negative.

I don't know, it's hard to explain.

Also, I think I'm pretty good at sticking feelings and thoughts to the backburner when I don't want to deal with it, or when it's easier to not deal with it. I guess if anything, I should know by now that that only makes it worse. However, I do it anyway. But I think it was finally time to deal with some things I've been putting on the backburner, and I'm really happy about that.

There's a few things that I've been reminded of, or have read, that just gave me a new mindset and outlook on things. It still blows my mind how powerful words can be, and how they affect me so much. More so than music I think. However, what really blows my mind is how crazy and amazing Jesus' love is, and how comforting the Bible is. It's CRAZY. I love it.

Something I really love: (I think I read this a lot in Trez's house - specifically her bathroom. For some reason I used to try and memorize it while I went potty - haha. I guess after all those times, it stuck.)

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the difference.

A few other things: (just off the top of my head)

Psalm 34:18, Psalm 37:4 (thanks for the reminder, d)

and lastly,

1 Corinthians 13:7

Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

That one is huge.

That is all. (This probably doesn't make much sense..sorry.)

UPDATE:

monday: lab assignment for drafting
tues: history paper w/ pictures
thurs: 3 assignments (materials board, luminaire design and 2 point perspective of room) and 2 sketchbooks due (alllmost done) and in class assignment due

following monday: drafting assignment due (kajdfkajf) and drafting exam
tues: history exam
thurs: design theory exam, and freehand in class assignment

I can't believe I survived tonight!! ONE MORE WEEK.

I also signed up for another class today :) Im happy with that decisions. falling asleep. nightynignt

:)

I have learned a new motto that is slowly getting stuck in my head, "just do it."

I get stressed out A LOT, about things that are coming up and things I cannot help. I always have.

But nowadays, David just says, "just do it."

And you know, that sounds so simple, and at first, I didn't listen, but it makes a lot of sense.

The last couple of days, I've just been trying to take things one step at a time, and it's helping a lot towards my stress levels. You see...my next two weeks are cuhhhrazy :(

monday: lab assignment for drafting
tues: history paper w/ pictures
thurs: 3 assignments (materials board, luminaire design and 2 point perspective of room) and 2 sketchbooks due (alllmost done) and in class assignment due

following monday: drafting assignment due (kajdfkajf) and drafting exam
tues: history exam
thurs: design theory exam, and freehand in class assignment

i guess this post is more for me than anyone else...hahaha, you see, i wouldnt be that stressed IF it was this only this week I had to worry about. HOWEVER, it's not, and the space shows everything I have yet to start on - aka all my exams I have not started studying for since I have been doing other assignments. On the bright side, I did my whole paper today :) I just gotta keep my head on straight these next couple of weeks and it will be okay. I JUST GOTTA DO IT. :)

On a sadder note, I didn't go grocery shopping today, which means I will not have any good snacks at school tomorrow. Silly joanne.

I am so happy though. Despite the homework load and the stress I'm trying to ignore - hahaha.

I hung out with my boooooooooyfriend this weekend, got lots of homework done and saw a bunch of friiiiiiiiiiiiiends the other night :) and therese cried when she saw me. hehehe :) but i also made a lot of new friends, which was soo awesome as well. PLUS, me and carmela dominated the last round of dutch blitz..aka getting a perfect 100 when I had to go. oh ya :)

I am a happy camper :)

Wish me luck and pray hard for my sanity.

lalala

It's one of those nights that I honestly cannot do homework, not matter how hard I try. I try to tell myself that I need to get done, but my subconscious knows that nothing is due tomorrow...and motivation flies out the window.

A friend of mine asked me today, "who are you? Honestly."

I still don't know what he meant by that, as I write this, but it got me thinking. I think it's a hard question to answer, or is that just me? I can't explain it. You know how people always say that we are who we are when nobody's watching, and I guess that's true. I was also reminded recently of how Mr. Dueck would say that we are the person that we are when we crawl into our beds at the end of a long day - nobody around, but ourselves and our thoughts. I guess I've also written before that I think the key to knowing someone is knowing their hopes, their fears, and their aspirations. I tried to re-evaluate those, and I guess that is also true as well.

It's still hard to explain though. I don't know how to. I don't know why I felt like blogging that.

I'm just Joanne, and I can't explain any better than that right now.

That's all I have to say right now.

:)

j: hey david?

d: yeah?

j: why don't i curl my hair?

d: cause it doesn't stay.

j: ...you're ridiculous.

what's up, doc?

Hello, hello....it has been a while friends!

I have been so busy, busy lately. And it's a busy week coming up :( I have a project, an assignment and a presentation all due this week. I'm already in week 8 of 12, so it's getting quite busy..really getting down to crunch time :(

But good news friends, I got 85 on my drafting midterm :) which is the beessstt mark I've ever gotten for that class :) I was so relieved. Plus, I really like how my assignment for freehand this week :) teehee

In other news, another thing I'm really happy/ excited about is: me and David have started reading the Bible together before school whenever we are able to meet in the mornings :) We're starting in Romans and that's pretty cool :) It's a really nice start to our mornings, I think. I think we were inspired by the Psalm post secret that I found and we thought it'd be a good idea to start it too. :)

We also started to play this game where we quiz each other on little facts about ourselves. Each time I get a question wrong, he gets a point, and vice versa. Right now, we are sitting at 8-6 (for David) - but it ain't over til the fat lady sings! We started playing it cause david kept listing facts about me all day and I got jealous. :)

My fav part was when he said, "yesterday, I was trying to think of your favourite colour and I couldn't think of it - but it's cause you don't have one" AWWWW hahaha - I told you I'd blog this, David, so here you go :D

Wish me luck this week, friends!