eveything is opposite.

This is gonna be a random collection of my thoughts. Well, I guess it always is anyway..

Something I thought of at work

I worked the floor for a bit yesterday and this Muslim lady was shopping with her daughter and I was helping them with sizes and stuff. And she was looking for all these long tops because she said her daughter went to a private school and she needed stuff that was long. Anyways, I was just thinking of different religions. It's kinda crazy 'cause I was thinking about my life, and how I've grown up being sure of Christianity. Like I know it as the truth in my life. Then I was thinking as I folded the messy table of 2 for $10 tanktops (a steal, I know)...like, IMAGINE if I had those feelings towards another religion. I mean it's really a miracle how people come to know Christ, ESPECIALLY if they believed in something else before that. Like...imagine feeling SO strongly about something, like Christianity is just a big part of my life, the biggest part probably...and I mean, for the most part..all my decisions are based on my faith. Or rather...I'd like to believe that ALL my decisions are. Anyways, so...I'm sure it's like that for other people/ other religions too. Like, it must be SUCH a big part of them too, and one day, someone just comes up to them and shares their faith..and some people are just transformed by that and believe. I mean, as a Christian, and this may sound arrogant to someone who isn't, but I know that Christianity is the real deal. And yes, I have my bad days, but at the end of the day, I know all the things I know to be true, and I love Jesus and I know He loves me. Hmm, what am I trying to say? Just that...imagine if I felt that for another religion and someone came and told me no, you should believe in Jesus instead. I'd be like..uh, no man. I believe in Buddha, or Allah. you know what I mean? Just sayin'. I don't know just something I was thinking of. I don't really know what my point was. Hahha.

Today @ Church

R will probably read this...(unless he doesn't and I just sound really cocky hahah) But today at church was cool. Like I've heard the story before, but as a whole with the rest of the message it was like, whoa. If you seek God, He will be found by you. It was just cool hearing the stories, and seeing how much of testimony R was to what he was actually talking about. If you are open to God and His will, then he will use you. That's ridiculous...and mind-boggling.

...hmm I forget what else I wanted to write about.

Random Thoughts

I think I'm done packing..I'm just doing music now. Ladededa. I'm not that excited yet. Actually, I hate packing. I always feel like I forgot something. There's nothing I ABSOLUTELY need right? I'm thinking no...hahah. I almost forgot pjs. phew. I'm excited to just kinda be away though. Last trip was Philippines...which I guess wasn't that long ago, but it feels forever ago. hahah, it sucks how much homework I have to do over the break though. I know, I know...tough life. Hahah keeding :) But seriously, I want to figure things out...and it'll be nice to just get away with Therese..and Celine (my new best friend). But really. It'll be fun :)

It's been a fun weekend though :) See y'all in a week.

I'll probably have internet though...well, fingers crossed.

missing this like crazy right now.

( the trip as a whole i mean...this picture just makes me smile :) )

March 25

This is what I did in writing class. Well actually, I did work. A bit hahah. This is what I SAW go down in writing class :p miles was in the process od giving gbarks a wet willy hahha.
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1. just calm down please.

2. i hate the fact that this batch of grade 9s think they are the coolest things around...yeah, no.

3. i washed my car :) its so shiny. yayay.

4. woww, SERIOUSLY.

5. too bad ehhh.

6. hehehe, yes my fav :)

7. i need to work on my dogwood portfolio.

8. that movie reminded me of u - i bawled my eyes out.

9. :)

10. i need more money.

March 24th 2010

This was my burger from CATS social house at granville island :) it was delishhh. We went for a writing field trip :)
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March 23 (i forgot to do one on the 22nd :()

This is what heaths wrote on my hand at youth :)
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oh boy, oh boy.

I have been the worst procrastinator lately. It's like...I'm just waiting for something..you know? LIKE K, i'll focus after this...does anybody else do that? cause i do..except i dont know what im waiting for. Maybe its just graduation getting to me. hahaha.

things are hectic these days, like always. i like that i work again though. :):)

things are...interesting. lol new season of life i guess. but really, some things are just like..what the heck! YOU KNOW? seeing as this is public..i cant really divulge much info. but really, overall, life is good. i really cant complain. :)

on another note, it's only a week til vegas. i cant waaaaaiiit!!!!!!!! muahahah :):):)

Sunday, march 21st

Therese's lemon water from wings that reminds me of slovakia. We drank lemon water errday. Haha good times :)
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Saturday, march 20th

"The Lookout" with therese and david. New fav spot in fh :) waddup.
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Friday, march 19th.

Haha been behind in uploading :)
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Photo of the day #2

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photo of the day - march 18th.

I can't decide which picture I like better, so today, I'm going to have two. Check out the signs me and jill made in yb. Waddup. We are gonna reform pa and make everyone G. What now :)
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update.

I guess it's time to update a little since..all I've been doing are pictures lately..

BUT COME ON, pictures are worth a thousand words right? rightio..

anyways, updates?

well, this is gonna be word vomit like usual. whatever comes to mind.

uhh, where to start. I LIKE HOW FRIENDSHIP CIRCLES ARE EXPANDING, but more than ever i am realizing how much i appreciate mine. like before, i thought we had nothing in common..but lately..im like no, wait. we are actually all a lot alike. Like...the fact that one of us can make a friend and ALL of us can become friends with them..is kinda cool. It shows that we are actually all a lot alike. (alliteration? or wait..assonance? yeah waddup. that's probably wrong) anyways. yeah. you get what im saying? Also, before, i was like what the heckkk is up with our CREW, for actually no particular reason at all, just on bad days when things were out of wack. (why am i talking like im such a g? ..well cause i am i guess, anyways..i just got off of work..so..i'm a little blahh) but then..i see other groups sometimes, and im like man..i love my friends :)

also, also..boys are retarded..and stupid.

hahah okay. sometimes. but like..why do they have to be on a completely different brainwave than girls? like seriously..we're not that complicated. you are. hahaha :)

kk. i'm gonna go talk on the phone and chit chat. talk to you later alligator :)

Photo of the day - march 17th 2010

This is the most exciting thing that happened to me today. We had a entrepreneurship "meeting" in the pa board room. It was so legit, it was insane. Haha okay.

So nice out today :) gonna take a nap then go to work! I feel so grown up, not. Hahah byebye.
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Photo of the Day- March 16th, 2010

This is what me and therese decided to do today. :) bienbien.
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Picture of the day - March 15

I just wrote my chem test, blaaahhh.

I slept about 4 hours last night, and so I am at home for spare, about to take a nap. This picture pretty much sums up my day. Sleep = (y) :)
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Photo of the day, suckas. (march 14, 2010)

This is me studying - I mean cramming - for chem.

11:59 and I have just begun really....stupid dailylight savings time. Sigh.

Back to daa books.
See ya later :)
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Daily photo - march 13th, 2010

So, I am in bed...ish, and completely forgot to take my picture of the day :(

This, my friends, is my tinkerbell alarm clock. Hahah, mo got it for me one year for secret santa.

But this clock here, symbolizes me wanting to be out later. I had to come home :( hahah, oh well. Nothing new. It was still a good day/ night.

Good night, goodnight. (I tweeted that line too....thought it was witty:p)
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March 12, 2010

Okay, so I kept telling myself that I'd do project 365 this year. But I kept forgetting/ got too lazy to do it. So I have random pictures that are all over the place. This is legit this time.

March 12, 2010 yo. Me, travis, melissa, tay and cas are sitting in the cafe for spare....hmm, if I were to caption this....it'd be, "You know you go to PA when...." Hahah, in the least bratty way possible :)

Mm, so glad its friday :)
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"Do you feel it now?..." - Melissa Rox. (also my 100th post haha)

do you feel it now?...
do you feel the fact that highschool is coming to a close. I feel it. I'm already saying goodbyes to people in my head. Dismissing the ones i've never talked to, and drawing in the ones that mean the world to me. One of my best friends is even leaving to another town after grad. The other wants to live in Hong Kong...on the other side of the world. Do you feel it now? 13 years was definately not long enough. In fact it was the shorter than i asked for. You don't pay attention to these things in middle school or even at the beginning of highschool. Do you remember that random kid that left your grade? Okay, one less person in your grade, no big deal. But what if that one kid was your best friend. Now try the whole grade leaving...and nobody ever really sees each other. I know that you can say "it's all about how much effort you make"...but reality hits change and eventually you just stop. NOT because they didnt mean that much to you. In fact they meant the whole world to you. But eventually you stop being friends with the people you see everyday for 6 or more hours a day. I can say, "that won't be me". But think of all the summer camp friends you swore you'd stay in touch with. I can hardly remember their names. I'll never forget the names of the people who guided me through highschool, but within a decade the only thing we'll have in common is facebook.
Do you feel it now? I'm not saying this because im a pessimist. I'm saying this because the truth of it is sinking in, and i hope that by saying it, it stops being true. But you and me both know thats not happening. I couldn't forget the years of PA if i tried my hardest. But i feel it, its coming to a close. This will be the greatest chapter of my life.

--Melissa Rox.

Post Secret entry from the book Shar got me :)

One year out of school, I asked a slender, beautiful girl to marry me. We had never dated. But time was of the essence, and I took a chance that she would say yes. She turned me down, of course. A year later I married the woman who would become the mother of our six children. Thirty-one years later the last of our children left the nest and I retired. And when my wife inherited a fortune from her parents' estate a year later, she got her divorce. Free to travel, I roamed the country, visiting friends and relatives for a solid year. I dropped in on the slender, beautiful girl to compare notes on our lives. She still had her beautiful smile but was close to being obese. When I told her about my six children she said, "We opted not to have children. I wanted to be a dancer, you know." I drove away with the words of a poignant ballad running through my mind: "One of God's greatest gifts is unanswered prayer."

My children and ten grandchildren don't know that they owe their existence to a slender, beautiful girl who said, "No." But I know how lucky I am that she did.

Goodnight all.

Slowly, but surely, I'm getting through this week. I thought it'd be one of the hardest weeks ever...but it really hasn't been too bad.

After two weeks of procrastination, I thought going back to school would be mayhem...and YES, the teachers are piling up the homework and I haven't worked on the Dogwood Scholarship/Fountainhead at all...BUT, the list is dwindling down to almost nothing. (That's a lie, it's still pretty huge, I just did all the little stuff first...so that my to-do list would get shorter..haha bad joanne)

So anyways, I'm just trying to focus on what's ahead. One foot ahead of the other right? Slow but steady wins the race? All these analogies, I hope they're right. Hahah.

Teachers seriously piled up the work load the few days back though...But at the same time, it's slack. Teachers are pretty sweet now...haha I yoke, I yoke. They've always been sweet..but things are so slack now. Maybe that's why it just feels so..finished. But anyways...I'm not complaining. It's a bittersweet way to end things. I love it.

But although it has been busy, I have been having fun..

Yesterday, like I said, was such a prank fail. But it was fun anyway. The planning..and the execution...(haha). I'd do it again even if I knew it'd turn out that way.

I guess that is the cheeky part in me.

Today was also pretty sweet...not gonna lie.

Except that I woke up late...but meh, that wasn't bad either. I got to sleep in..an extra twenty minutes hahaha.

Okay...I lied, I guess there's basically almost four months. BUT WHATEVER.

Don't judge me.

Also, I'm kinda nervous about work this Saturday...because even though it's the same, it's different...YOU KNOW?!

Yeah well, one day at a time, one day at a time.

Hey, it's 11:11 as I type this.

Also, I have a chem quiz tomorrow.

Hopefully it's easy.

I should do more homework, but I'm really really sleepy.

AND, my nails look like crapcrap because I've been picking at them all day. I mean..I painted them in Lit class after our presentations, but then..Lunch came around..and the guys were being ahem.. obnoxious to say the least.. and got blue paint all over my face and uniform...I guess I deserved it. Sigh.

Anyways, point was, nails = U.G.L.Y, and they ain't got no alibi. they UGLY.

Okay, that's enough.

:)

I came across this cover yesterday.

Alexander de Leon from The Cab singing a cover of Nsync's - This I Promise You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uE_ApqoArcc

SO GOOD :)

kadjfkajkfjakfj.

K at this point, my parents are deciding between Vancity or Richmond...Sigh.

I mean..I'm HAPPY for them that they sold the house. I mean they need to sell the house to be able to build more..then sell more, and so on and so forth. But it's like...I never actually realized how much I'd dread it. Like...before, my parents would always be like WE'RE MOVING, and I'd be like K, sweet...where in FH? No big deal.

Or even IF it wasn't, it's like..k, that sucks, but whatever, i'll still see everyone at school on Monday. NO BIG DEAL.

BUT NOW....what happens when I CAN'T see everyone on Monday?

Like with graduation day looming like...THREE months away, I was thinking like, crap, I have to say goodbye to everyone for the most part, but whatever I'll always just live like BASICALLY down the street from everyone...I'll still be in the same neighbourhood as them...BUT NOW...PSYCH, that's not true.

I'M FREAKING MOVING. okay, granted, I'm making a very big deal out of this...but I've lived in fh for almost 8 years? That's a long time...and my LIFE is here.

What happens when I move...and I wake up and have nothing to do? Then what? WHO DO I CALL UP TO...take a walk to -or rather...drive to HAHA- starbucks with or...who's house do I drive 2 mins to?!

In 3 months, I won't be able to do that. WHICH SUCKS.

AND YES, I know, everything changes after high school ANYWAY, but that doesn't make this any easier...if anything, harder.

KAJDKFAJFKAJF I'm tearing up, can you believe it?! HAHA I'M SUCH A LOSER.

But anyways, OKAY, I'm really, really lucky that my parents moved here in the first place for PA and mostly for me...or probably ALL for me, AND they waited til I graduated to move...

But really, I'm gonna be 17 in a new city, where I know nobody.

AND YES, I KNOW EVERYONE WILL ONLY BE A...bridge? AWAY...

BUT IT'S NOT THE SAME.

IT WON'T EVER BE THE SAME AFTER I MOVE. WAHH :'(

(sigh, at least it's not like alberta)

ALSO, I bombed my English 12 provincial. OKAY, I didn't BOMB it. It just wasn't the greatest. Defs not. The good news is...they don't count it if it lowers your grade average. So I guess I'm still technically at 88. BUT COME ON. English is my forte, I was gonna cry.

Today was such a fail...a PRANK fail. HAHA.

Just kidding. It wasn't bad. I just didn't get the best news ever...you know?!

BOO. I WISH OUR PRANK WORKED LOL.

10 quick points.

1. I start work again this Saturday. Or rather, I WORK this Saturday. Either way, Woo. I need money. Badly. Hahaha.

2. The procrastination is catching up with me. AHH.

3. I need to cut my nails. Maybe I'll wake up early instead. HAHA, not likely.

4. I need a massage, my shoulders hurt so much :(

5. I can't freaking wait for Vegas!

6. jadkfjakfjakfj fingers crossed.

7. Those two weeks went by WAY, WAY, WAY too fast.

8. Everytime I'm not in school, it feels like schools already out.. WEIRD.

9. Homework tonight was a pain.

10. I miss my long hair.

Goodnight :)