Moments

There are certain moments in life that I can close my eyes and remember really vividly. Off of the top of my head, things like my first day at PA as I walked by the primary building and scratched my leg from the corner of a new binder, the feeling of a warm instant cappuccino in my hand as we walked the streets of Lucenec and it started snowing, rushing to Newton wave pool after middle school graduation...sitting in the car and texting after I passed my L/ N.

Upstairs, by the computer table, my mom put a wall decal on the wall that reads, "We do not remember days, we remember moments." Until probably...2 minutes ago, I thought that was pretty cliche, and while it is...I actually understand it more.

I don't necessarily remember the rest of my first day, or what kind of coffee I was drinking...but I vividly remember the feelings I had as those things happened. Okay, fine, those really aren't the most significant things that have ever happened in my life...but if I told you all the significant things that have ever happened in my life, I'd probably have to kill you. JK. or not.

Anyways, like I said there are moments in my life, that I can still close my eyes and remember vividly. But it wasn't so much about what happened and when, but more about the feelings, thoughts and things I learned AS those things happened. Make sense? I always have my camera on me to capture the days, and what happened. But the thing I wish I could capture the most are the lessons learned, and feelings felt at the time. YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING?

Man, things never come out the way I plan for them to. Anyways....

I could probably sit down and list memory after memory, but I won't. At least not right now.

Right now, as I sit here, procrastinating on chem, I am closing my eyes (metaphorically speaking) and remembering the last month or so. There are moments I can point to and say, "Yeah, that's definitely something I won't soon forget. Something that I can look back on 5, 10, 15 years from now (maybe) as I sit somewhere, close my eyes (either metaphorically or literally that time) and will remember vividly."

Obviously, things seem more significant at the time you are going through them, but I feel like these few months will be significant even as I look back on it in the future. I guess that's easy to say now, but still.

I don't know if this is the case necessarily, but I feel like there aren't many moments in life that we really recognize as significant at the time that we are experiencing it. Does that make sense? Like, I feel like we don't recognize the significance of a moment until it has already passed us by. I feel like if we did, we'd take the time to enjoy certain things more. At least that's the case for me.

I feel like recognizing the significance of a moment as it happens allows the memory to be so much more vivid, and much more significant. (What's another word for significant? I need more words. HAHA) But I feel like I was lucky enough, in the last couple of months, to recognize some significant moments as they passed. Phew :)

Anyways...I think I had more....

But look who just came to visit me :)

This is much better, hehe.