March 12, 2010

Okay, so I kept telling myself that I'd do project 365 this year. But I kept forgetting/ got too lazy to do it. So I have random pictures that are all over the place. This is legit this time.

March 12, 2010 yo. Me, travis, melissa, tay and cas are sitting in the cafe for spare....hmm, if I were to caption this....it'd be, "You know you go to PA when...." Hahah, in the least bratty way possible :)

Mm, so glad its friday :)
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"Do you feel it now?..." - Melissa Rox. (also my 100th post haha)

do you feel it now?...
do you feel the fact that highschool is coming to a close. I feel it. I'm already saying goodbyes to people in my head. Dismissing the ones i've never talked to, and drawing in the ones that mean the world to me. One of my best friends is even leaving to another town after grad. The other wants to live in Hong Kong...on the other side of the world. Do you feel it now? 13 years was definately not long enough. In fact it was the shorter than i asked for. You don't pay attention to these things in middle school or even at the beginning of highschool. Do you remember that random kid that left your grade? Okay, one less person in your grade, no big deal. But what if that one kid was your best friend. Now try the whole grade leaving...and nobody ever really sees each other. I know that you can say "it's all about how much effort you make"...but reality hits change and eventually you just stop. NOT because they didnt mean that much to you. In fact they meant the whole world to you. But eventually you stop being friends with the people you see everyday for 6 or more hours a day. I can say, "that won't be me". But think of all the summer camp friends you swore you'd stay in touch with. I can hardly remember their names. I'll never forget the names of the people who guided me through highschool, but within a decade the only thing we'll have in common is facebook.
Do you feel it now? I'm not saying this because im a pessimist. I'm saying this because the truth of it is sinking in, and i hope that by saying it, it stops being true. But you and me both know thats not happening. I couldn't forget the years of PA if i tried my hardest. But i feel it, its coming to a close. This will be the greatest chapter of my life.

--Melissa Rox.

Post Secret entry from the book Shar got me :)

One year out of school, I asked a slender, beautiful girl to marry me. We had never dated. But time was of the essence, and I took a chance that she would say yes. She turned me down, of course. A year later I married the woman who would become the mother of our six children. Thirty-one years later the last of our children left the nest and I retired. And when my wife inherited a fortune from her parents' estate a year later, she got her divorce. Free to travel, I roamed the country, visiting friends and relatives for a solid year. I dropped in on the slender, beautiful girl to compare notes on our lives. She still had her beautiful smile but was close to being obese. When I told her about my six children she said, "We opted not to have children. I wanted to be a dancer, you know." I drove away with the words of a poignant ballad running through my mind: "One of God's greatest gifts is unanswered prayer."

My children and ten grandchildren don't know that they owe their existence to a slender, beautiful girl who said, "No." But I know how lucky I am that she did.

Goodnight all.

Slowly, but surely, I'm getting through this week. I thought it'd be one of the hardest weeks ever...but it really hasn't been too bad.

After two weeks of procrastination, I thought going back to school would be mayhem...and YES, the teachers are piling up the homework and I haven't worked on the Dogwood Scholarship/Fountainhead at all...BUT, the list is dwindling down to almost nothing. (That's a lie, it's still pretty huge, I just did all the little stuff first...so that my to-do list would get shorter..haha bad joanne)

So anyways, I'm just trying to focus on what's ahead. One foot ahead of the other right? Slow but steady wins the race? All these analogies, I hope they're right. Hahah.

Teachers seriously piled up the work load the few days back though...But at the same time, it's slack. Teachers are pretty sweet now...haha I yoke, I yoke. They've always been sweet..but things are so slack now. Maybe that's why it just feels so..finished. But anyways...I'm not complaining. It's a bittersweet way to end things. I love it.

But although it has been busy, I have been having fun..

Yesterday, like I said, was such a prank fail. But it was fun anyway. The planning..and the execution...(haha). I'd do it again even if I knew it'd turn out that way.

I guess that is the cheeky part in me.

Today was also pretty sweet...not gonna lie.

Except that I woke up late...but meh, that wasn't bad either. I got to sleep in..an extra twenty minutes hahaha.

Okay...I lied, I guess there's basically almost four months. BUT WHATEVER.

Don't judge me.

Also, I'm kinda nervous about work this Saturday...because even though it's the same, it's different...YOU KNOW?!

Yeah well, one day at a time, one day at a time.

Hey, it's 11:11 as I type this.

Also, I have a chem quiz tomorrow.

Hopefully it's easy.

I should do more homework, but I'm really really sleepy.

AND, my nails look like crapcrap because I've been picking at them all day. I mean..I painted them in Lit class after our presentations, but then..Lunch came around..and the guys were being ahem.. obnoxious to say the least.. and got blue paint all over my face and uniform...I guess I deserved it. Sigh.

Anyways, point was, nails = U.G.L.Y, and they ain't got no alibi. they UGLY.

Okay, that's enough.

:)

I came across this cover yesterday.

Alexander de Leon from The Cab singing a cover of Nsync's - This I Promise You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uE_ApqoArcc

SO GOOD :)

kadjfkajkfjakfj.

K at this point, my parents are deciding between Vancity or Richmond...Sigh.

I mean..I'm HAPPY for them that they sold the house. I mean they need to sell the house to be able to build more..then sell more, and so on and so forth. But it's like...I never actually realized how much I'd dread it. Like...before, my parents would always be like WE'RE MOVING, and I'd be like K, sweet...where in FH? No big deal.

Or even IF it wasn't, it's like..k, that sucks, but whatever, i'll still see everyone at school on Monday. NO BIG DEAL.

BUT NOW....what happens when I CAN'T see everyone on Monday?

Like with graduation day looming like...THREE months away, I was thinking like, crap, I have to say goodbye to everyone for the most part, but whatever I'll always just live like BASICALLY down the street from everyone...I'll still be in the same neighbourhood as them...BUT NOW...PSYCH, that's not true.

I'M FREAKING MOVING. okay, granted, I'm making a very big deal out of this...but I've lived in fh for almost 8 years? That's a long time...and my LIFE is here.

What happens when I move...and I wake up and have nothing to do? Then what? WHO DO I CALL UP TO...take a walk to -or rather...drive to HAHA- starbucks with or...who's house do I drive 2 mins to?!

In 3 months, I won't be able to do that. WHICH SUCKS.

AND YES, I know, everything changes after high school ANYWAY, but that doesn't make this any easier...if anything, harder.

KAJDKFAJFKAJF I'm tearing up, can you believe it?! HAHA I'M SUCH A LOSER.

But anyways, OKAY, I'm really, really lucky that my parents moved here in the first place for PA and mostly for me...or probably ALL for me, AND they waited til I graduated to move...

But really, I'm gonna be 17 in a new city, where I know nobody.

AND YES, I KNOW EVERYONE WILL ONLY BE A...bridge? AWAY...

BUT IT'S NOT THE SAME.

IT WON'T EVER BE THE SAME AFTER I MOVE. WAHH :'(

(sigh, at least it's not like alberta)

ALSO, I bombed my English 12 provincial. OKAY, I didn't BOMB it. It just wasn't the greatest. Defs not. The good news is...they don't count it if it lowers your grade average. So I guess I'm still technically at 88. BUT COME ON. English is my forte, I was gonna cry.

Today was such a fail...a PRANK fail. HAHA.

Just kidding. It wasn't bad. I just didn't get the best news ever...you know?!

BOO. I WISH OUR PRANK WORKED LOL.

10 quick points.

1. I start work again this Saturday. Or rather, I WORK this Saturday. Either way, Woo. I need money. Badly. Hahaha.

2. The procrastination is catching up with me. AHH.

3. I need to cut my nails. Maybe I'll wake up early instead. HAHA, not likely.

4. I need a massage, my shoulders hurt so much :(

5. I can't freaking wait for Vegas!

6. jadkfjakfjakfj fingers crossed.

7. Those two weeks went by WAY, WAY, WAY too fast.

8. Everytime I'm not in school, it feels like schools already out.. WEIRD.

9. Homework tonight was a pain.

10. I miss my long hair.

Goodnight :)