i love carrots and hats.

I always find that the blogs where I try to explain the lesson I learned from someone the hardest to write. It's like...I struggle the most with trying to explain it in as perfect and clear as the way I understood it, and heard it. I always find that when I type it out, it just becomes meaningless words on a page. It's like i just raamble on, and on and on and its just like word vomit. Vomit! Okay, not really. But yaaa dig? HOWEVER, I still feel this need to write it out, so that I can re-ponder it, think about it, dwell on it - whatever. Mar was saying the other night how there is something different about seeing the words written, and I agree. It just makes more sense.

So today, in Small Gs we continued talkin' about s-e-x. Yeah, sex. Anyways, in a nutshell, it was just deeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. Highlights? When you are looking for a boyfriend or whatever, you should write a list of all the things you look for/ want in that guy...then strive to be THAT. Basically, in order to find what you're looking for, you need to BE what you're looking for. Does that make sense? Well, anyways, it does to me. It's like...if I want a guy who is IN LOVE with Jesus, I can't just want it. I have to also be 100%, fully IN LOVE with Jesus. "But a good relationship is more about becoming the right person than finding the right person." (Every Young Woman's Battle, p. 35) - check out that referencing. English 12, wadddup! Anyways, back to the point...basically, that was the big one. Ultimately, I would want a guy who loves Jesus, and I won't find that if I'm not there with my relationship with Jesus. Also, I learned that we should always race towards the cross, with full force. The guy that we should look for is someone who is running toward is just as hard us as, or is running ever harder/ faster.

I think that's another one that stood out to me. That's Biblical ain't it? That the guy is the head of the household, and therefore it's important that the men we look for have a strong(er) foundation in the Lord. And when you find a guy that isn't, don't think that you can change him, because you can't. (myth number 5 in daa book). Why? Because the guy shouldn't want to change because he's in love with you, he should want to change because he is in love with Jesus.

Also, girls are more emotional than guys. (Okay, I guess that's a given). I guess...that's a story for another time.

Mmmm, these things were just mind-boggling tonight, put in a different way that just blew my mind. Or maybe I just loved it because it's stuff that I needed to hear/ learn.

Bon soir!