Life.

When you're little, you always picture that you're life is going to be this amazing thing. You have these dreams, and one day, you're going to be great. You know in 13 going on 30? All she wanted was to be "30, flirty, and thriving" or something like that? (Don't get me wrong, those three things aren't what I am working towards, haha.) But anyways, it's like..when you're young, you just can't wait to grow up. In my case, right now, I couldn't wait to be in high school, be 17, graduate. Now it's here. And honestly, I don't feel that old. If anything, I feel younger than I ever have before. So young, so not ready for what's ahead.

And it's not even the real world eh? Me and D were talking, and we were saying how high school prepares us for university, and university prepares us for the real world. In some ways at least. Like, it's not just "Plop. Go make something of yourself" right when you finish high school, right? You have time to figure things out slowly. (Plop, as in...plopping you in the real world, haha.) But four years is going to go by so fast. Mr. F said one time in math class...that the next 10 years of our lives are going to be the most...significant. Well, what he said was that...basically everything is going to happen for us in the next years. University, finish university, careers, marriage. That's crazy.

Still, like I was saying, as a kid, you always picture what your life is going to be like - what you're going to be like 5, 10, 15 years from now. Except, when I picture it, it's never about what got me there...it's always just...me..there. Already 30, already thriving. You know? Often, I leave out the journey that got me there.

I think that's what I'm realizing these days....that life isn't what it's going to be 5, 10 or even 15 years from now. Life is now.

SO CLICHE, I know. But it's true. I feel like that's so simple, and obvious, but it's really hitting me now.

Life is what I make of it.

I can't expect to be 30, flirty, and thriving (not literally) if I don't live life NOW.

Does that make sense?

On a sorta related note, but not really, I've been wondering this lately...

Generally speaking, in life, do you think it's better to sit back and let things happen (let the chips fall where they may), or is better to make things happen?

Mmmm. Smell ya later.