Other nights...I can't stop crying 'cause it's all ending. We're never gonna be the way we are now...ever again. For as long as we live. (Yeah, okay, so I'm a little dramatic.)
And then...nights when I'm so annoyed 'cause people just need to mind their own business...I'm so DONEEEE. But hey, I guess that doesn't really change in life, but still. I'm ready to be over high school people who are so curious about every little thing around them. PA's cool. Everyone know's everyone...but that's the thing, everyone KNOWS everyone..too much sometimes.
I used to hate on my grade, like oh, I wish we were more like this...more like that...I wish we all had more in common. The closer we are to the end, the more I love our grade - the more I appreciate everyone. We really aren't all that different - I wish I saw that earlier.
Just the right amount of humour, sarcasm, but also seriousness. The right amount of excitement, but also apathy. A little bit of bad, but definitely more than enough good. A good mix of really great people.
I couldn't imagine being in any other grade.
Not to mention, I couldn't imagine coming back for another year. I'm so over it. It may be in the heat of the moment, I get in hot and cold moods about grad, but RIGHT NOW, I am. I couldn't imagine coming back to the same tedious work, knowing what I know now. I couldn't deal with the SAME drama and gossip of high school. Granted, I know I contributed to some of it too, but still. It is hard imagining life @ PA continuing on next year, and a big part of me is so, so sad about it, yet I think it's time to move on. Fresh start.
Don't get me wrong....
I'm not insecure about who I am. I'm not excited about the end because I want to run away from who I am at PA. Like I'm sure you've figured out, PA has been an amazing ride. PA has been my home away from home...the place where I felt the most comfortable outside of my house. On most days, school was actually fun and bearable.
I'm not insecure about who I am. I'm not excited about the end because I want to run away from who I am at PA. Like I'm sure you've figured out, PA has been an amazing ride. PA has been my home away from home...the place where I felt the most comfortable outside of my house. On most days, school was actually fun and bearable.
Yet, I'm ready for a time and place where...everyone doesn't think that just because they see me everyday...know who my friends are...that they know me.
'Cause they don't. They don't know me.
Not even close
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