I want to be forever youngg..

Life is so funny.

The last four years of high school went by so slow, yet so fast at the same time. I can remember certain moments vividly, and other moments just seem like a blur. Mrs. S was talking the other day about how sometimes, the things that seem like a big deal to us, aren't as big of a deal to everyone else.

I'm a sentimental freak, and even though there were times I just wanted to be out of high school, I wish I could just stay here forever. Sure, I wan't to start fresh and experience new things, meet new people. But I'll miss it, even more than I probably expect.

I look around at my friends sometimes, and I am at a lost for words at how far we've come. If you told me four years ago that this was how things would end up, I don't know if I would've believed you. I'm friends with people I never thought I would become friends with, and yet I lost touch with some people I thought I would never stop being friends with. Like I said, life's pretty funny sometimes.

The other day, we talked about determinism vs. fatalism in CP. I think I believe more in determinism. If I understood the definition correctly that is. I don't necessarily believe that the way everything turned out was exactly how things were supposed to turn out. Personally, I know there are a lot of things I could've done differently. Not to say that I have a lot of regrets. I do believe that everything happens for a reason, but I think that our choices play a huge part in who we become. There are certain points in my life that I can point to and know that had I done something differently there, my life and the circumstances around me would be different. There are parts of me that wish I could re-do some things, yet I think ultimately, things have worked out for the best. Whether they were always the best choice in the situation, maybe not...but nevertheless, they taught me something along the way. I found out a long time ago that I shouldn't wallow in my mistakes because that'll get me nowhere. It's about knowing when to pick myself up, and knowing when I need to move past it.

I always tell myself that it's not good to live in yesterday - that it'll get me nowhere. Sometimes, I don't always remember that, but it's daa truth right?

I've complained about SO MANY things along the way, I know...but I need to wake up and realize that like I said, living in yesterdays won't get me anywhere.

Here's to the last 6 months.