actually, i havent seen them much. they're in their room sleeping..oh, jet lag. bad choice, i say. it will only come back and bite them! haha. but anyways,
i havent blogged in a while.
actually, i don't feel like i have much to say, which is saying something..because i usually have something to say. HAHA. but really, i don't have much of a desire for it..which is weird. actually, i don't have much of a desire to do much. it's like..i'm apathetic but not. i mean life is in a good place right now, like really good. i'm having fun, and just enjoyin' time with friends. i mean, it's still kind of weird being back..i am still homesick for the philippines. no really, homesick. i miss my family. but that's the thing. i think the thing i've learned the most in the past month is seriously how BLESSED i am. i've said it before, but really. like, before, i was reminded of how blessed i am with family...but being back, i've come to realize that i'm also SO blessed when it comes to the people around me.
like..okay, there's been drama, and whatever along the way. but wow, like as i tried writing my grad write-up, i realized just how much i'm gonna miss everyone. actually, i realized how glad i am that i got to go through life with them - with everyone i've met. like, the people around you really do shape who you become i think..and it's weird to think that i'd be a completely different person if even just one person was missing. ...legit? i think sooo.
i am sooo thankful for the people around me.
and earlier, i was asking myself...like WHAT ARE YOU DOING? if you try and get closer to other/new people, it's going to make it even harder to leave and say goodbye. but then..im thinking now..that's a given isn't it? having to say goodbye. CHOOSING to not make more friends in an effort to save myself from the pain, only messes ME up because that's ME holding myself back from being able to experience new things and make different memories, with different people.
mmm yeah. that's what i was thinking about today.
also, we aren't supposed to talk about it..at all really. but shoooot CP classes these days are rad. like it's the relationship portion..like..courting and stuff. and okay, yeah, you're thinking, of course you would like that joanne, you're a sap. and okay, that's true. but it's actually deep, legit talks that you go whaaaatttt whoaaa at the deep insights. haha no joke, well sometimes.
but today, mr.d was like, "just because you love someone, doesn't mean you have to marry them."
stuff i've heard before, etc. but..it's different when you hear it in a CLASS. haha i dont know, like, i don't relate to it now, but it's still a good nugget of wisdom to tuck into the back of my mind, our minds, whatever. i mean..i hope that makes sense. there's obviously context to it..
okay, i guess that's enough. haha
smell ya later alligator.
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