Seriously, I went on for at least 400 words, rambling on about what I need to do, things I need to accomplish. And the worst part was, I sounded like an LG 99% of the time. What's even worse is, I think that my writing has seriously gone downhill. I love writing, this is so sad.
Okay, here, I'll try it.
I didn't realize that people actually read this. I've kept blogs for a while, but they used to be private, or limited to only 2/3 people who blogged along with me. It was like ours means of communication, our way to stay tapped into eachother's lives. So I guess, if you follow this, this is your way of tapping into my life. I just hope I know you..haha. Anyways, I enjoy blogging. If you read my blurb (found on the left-hand side - haha) you'll understand why. Bloggings a good release. I enjoy it. It's a place where I can just talk about whatever, and to be honest, I'm a writer, not a talker. I like to be able to see what I'm saying, and to be able to analyze it, tweak it.
So anyways, like I said, there's something about knowing your blog is out there, yet not. Anyways, I didn't write this post to advertise how great blogging is, even though it's starting to sound like that..
I guess the only advantage of having your blog private is that you're so much more free to be transparent. I think that's why it's so hard for me to do this whole blogging transparently thing now.
But like I said, I guess I'll try it now...again.
K there's a reason for this...or a lesson learned..so just try and follow me haha.
I think..I watched too many romantic comedies growing up. I'm the girl who subconsciously believed in Prince Charming disguised as the random stranger you just coincidentally meet on a street corner, falling madly in love instantly. Okay, just kidding, I'm not that terrible. Almost, but not quite. But really, up to recently, I didn't realize how distorted my expectations/views were. Media, man, media. Let's be real. There is no princess, no fairytale, no leading up stairwells, and this defs ain't no hollywood. (Are you picking up what I just put down there?) But really, like I mentioned, I am seriously being BOMBARDED with relationship lessons, and talks. It's like whoa, reallly? All at once. It's such a blur that I forget where I hear what from.
Anyways, back to unrealistic expectations. Granted, my expectations of Prince Charming weren't as far-fetched as scenario one, for a long time, I still believed that there was only one boy in the world for me, and I had to find him. I don't believe it anymore. Do you?
After hearing things like, "just because you love someone, doesn't mean you have to marry them," and "you don't have to marry the one you love, you'll love the one you marry..." and reading things like, "Many young men could qualify as your Mr. Right, but you get to choose which one you want to commit to. However, even if you do not choose wisely and marry Mr. Wrong, when you recite your wedding vows, he automatically becomes your Mr. Right."
My favourite was the last one because, the first two I'd heard before. But I've never heard the last one put like that.
I was always a sucker for finding "the one" (and there was only one) and having a happy ending. I guess life's not exactly like that though. No, siree, it is not.
Anyway, moral of the story/ what I've learned?
Sometimes, yeah, you may love someone, and they could be the PERFECT mr. right, but sometimes, that's all it is.
Peace out.
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